I really like N Dubz... It's worrying me...
Had such a long day! A day of annoyance, mostly at Judy, tiredness, mostly due to Judy pushing me too far, snapping, mostly at Judy and WAY too much singing. Basically, we had 3 full run throughs of our show today and I was tired and faint and my head was banging and Judy was being a twat and I got annoyed and kicked a wall... but then something amazing happened. Just when I was about to burst in to tears a certain beautiful boy runs into E74 and plants the biggest kiss on me i've ever had. Talk about perfect timing.
I've always wanted someone to be romantic and spontanious and just... be there when I needed them. To not make me feel guilty or un important or not worthy. Like I was disposable.
... And now I feel wanted, and needed, and it's nice :)
Tuesday, 28 April 2009
Saturday, 25 April 2009
So uninspired, so sick and tired
I feel like I should blog. As it's been a while. So I'l tell you about my day:
7:15am: awake to the sound of my raucus phone alarm, I am awake 15 minutes earlier than I should be so I can wash my hair before my long long day. I have actually only been snoozing for the past few hours due to the STUPIDMOTHERFUCKINGPHEASANTINMYGARDEN. *cough*
7:30am: emerge from the shower, nice and clean, but still not at all awake.
8:30am: Leave for work. Get the bus, find Josie and proceed to talk about our weeks on the way to work. I have not seen her in 2 weeks due to my stupid back problems last week. It was nice to see her again :) I love Josie. I'm going to cry when she goes to Uni and I become the new Molly. If you don't understand the term "new Molly" it's because you're not cool enough to work at Cardew and Co or to know Me, Josie and Molly!
11:00am: Walk down to Alliance and Leister to see Bradderz for a bit and collect the money she owes me for reading tickets. We chat about Nando's. We're going next week with Luke and John. It's going to be pretty damn awesome I think.
13:30pm: leave work early and head to Sainsbury's to buy Costa chocolate milk before heading down to the PlayHouse for todays shows. I am currently doing Follow Spot Operating for Fiddler On The Roof... don't know If I mentioned that in a blog yet...
14:30pm: Matinee starts... I am hot and bored already... I nearly fall asleep... twise...
17:00pm: Me and Jenna go to NoodleNation and get food in the break between matinee and evening shows. We sit on a bench with Beckie and Lucy and have a good old catchup in the sun which is well good. I miss my OYMT biatches.
19:00pm: Me and Ben go for a stroll down to Starbucks and get marshmallow twizzley things. They are basically chocolatey marshmallows on sticks. He buys me one. It's AMAZING.
19:30pm: Evening show begins. I only fall asleep once... but I do forget to Spot Tom whilst he's singing his solo... he sings the first two lines in the dark... I laughed...
22:15pm: Show finishes, I proceed to go hug lots of people and am gifted with a 6 pack of Bud for my hard work this week. I am happy.
23:10pm: I am sat at the computer writing a blog. I'm not quite sure why I wrote it out like this. It's probably very boring to read and I apologise! I am going to go drink Bud and talk to my lovely Luke because I miss him :(
...Just coz I love Frankie's face in this...
ADIOS GUYS. X
7:15am: awake to the sound of my raucus phone alarm, I am awake 15 minutes earlier than I should be so I can wash my hair before my long long day. I have actually only been snoozing for the past few hours due to the STUPIDMOTHERFUCKINGPHEASANTINMYGARDEN. *cough*
7:30am: emerge from the shower, nice and clean, but still not at all awake.
8:30am: Leave for work. Get the bus, find Josie and proceed to talk about our weeks on the way to work. I have not seen her in 2 weeks due to my stupid back problems last week. It was nice to see her again :) I love Josie. I'm going to cry when she goes to Uni and I become the new Molly. If you don't understand the term "new Molly" it's because you're not cool enough to work at Cardew and Co or to know Me, Josie and Molly!
11:00am: Walk down to Alliance and Leister to see Bradderz for a bit and collect the money she owes me for reading tickets. We chat about Nando's. We're going next week with Luke and John. It's going to be pretty damn awesome I think.
13:30pm: leave work early and head to Sainsbury's to buy Costa chocolate milk before heading down to the PlayHouse for todays shows. I am currently doing Follow Spot Operating for Fiddler On The Roof... don't know If I mentioned that in a blog yet...
14:30pm: Matinee starts... I am hot and bored already... I nearly fall asleep... twise...
17:00pm: Me and Jenna go to NoodleNation and get food in the break between matinee and evening shows. We sit on a bench with Beckie and Lucy and have a good old catchup in the sun which is well good. I miss my OYMT biatches.
19:00pm: Me and Ben go for a stroll down to Starbucks and get marshmallow twizzley things. They are basically chocolatey marshmallows on sticks. He buys me one. It's AMAZING.
19:30pm: Evening show begins. I only fall asleep once... but I do forget to Spot Tom whilst he's singing his solo... he sings the first two lines in the dark... I laughed...
22:15pm: Show finishes, I proceed to go hug lots of people and am gifted with a 6 pack of Bud for my hard work this week. I am happy.
23:10pm: I am sat at the computer writing a blog. I'm not quite sure why I wrote it out like this. It's probably very boring to read and I apologise! I am going to go drink Bud and talk to my lovely Luke because I miss him :(
...Just coz I love Frankie's face in this...ADIOS GUYS. X
Thursday, 23 April 2009
We do not heed your dismal sound for joy reigns everywhere around
Being at the PlayHouse the past few days doinf follow spot for OYMT's production of Fiddler on the Roof has got me really nostalgic about my past years there. I can't stop thinking about all the good times I've had there! And listening to all the soundtracks!
Hot Mikado: fucking brilliant show, my first proper show and it was at the PlayHouse! Met a bunch of amazing people, and although I was just a chorus member with like.. one like it was still so amazing. The lights, the applause, the costumes from primark!!
Les Miserables: A completely different experience, double the cast members, half the theatre space! Being able to sing such amazing music with people I love was a privelage!
Next year... WHO KNOWS!
Today was pretty good to be honest. Had college for a few hours and got to go over my song which made me happy, then went to the New Theatre to see English National Ballet do Manon, after doing our ballet workshop yesterday. It was... well... stunning to be honest. It was so beautifuly and exquisitely done I was in awe. They make it look so easy...
And they're all so beautifulo and all the guys have AMAZING bums. so toned... *drool*
Then went around town with Big Spoon for a bit and bumped into some proper random blasts from the past! TASHA MY ASIAN BABE!!! <3>
Sunday, 19 April 2009
My heart is stone, and still it trembles
Theres is nothing on earth that we share, it is either Val Jean or Javert.
*insert names as appropriate*
I didn't blog yesterday, and my blog today was a little bit of a rant. So here's a proper blog!
Yesterday was a good day. A very good day!!
Me and Emkins and Tom went in to wonderful Oxford town and went shopping for costume for next week, and then went for tea, and then stalked abi for a bit. It was well fun :) Me and Emma bought waistcoats and hotpants and tights. Well... Emma didn't actually pay for her waistcoat! Silly lady in Primark!
I then went home and proceeded to make myself look pretty for "the date!" And then made my way to meet Luke. We went to a really lovely rustic pub/restaurant that was all bare wood and old beams and candles. It was so nice! We had steak and I had creme brulee and an espresso, I felt well grown up! We then went back to Big Spoon's humble abode and watched Bill Bayley's dvd which is HILARIOUS.
I did fuck all today apart from listen to Luke play guitar, watch T4, sleep and eat lots of chocolate. It was amazing. He is amazing. He's kept me sane these past few months.
Oh btw, Did I mention I love Zoetwin??
She's pretty awsome and I love her lots and she makes me very very happy and i couldn't ask
*insert names as appropriate*
I didn't blog yesterday, and my blog today was a little bit of a rant. So here's a proper blog!
Yesterday was a good day. A very good day!!
Me and Emkins and Tom went in to wonderful Oxford town and went shopping for costume for next week, and then went for tea, and then stalked abi for a bit. It was well fun :) Me and Emma bought waistcoats and hotpants and tights. Well... Emma didn't actually pay for her waistcoat! Silly lady in Primark!
I then went home and proceeded to make myself look pretty for "the date!" And then made my way to meet Luke. We went to a really lovely rustic pub/restaurant that was all bare wood and old beams and candles. It was so nice! We had steak and I had creme brulee and an espresso, I felt well grown up! We then went back to Big Spoon's humble abode and watched Bill Bayley's dvd which is HILARIOUS.
I did fuck all today apart from listen to Luke play guitar, watch T4, sleep and eat lots of chocolate. It was amazing. He is amazing. He's kept me sane these past few months.
Oh btw, Did I mention I love Zoetwin??
She's pretty awsome and I love her lots and she makes me very very happy and i couldn't ask
Friday, 17 April 2009
Same shit, different day.
I know, three blogs in one night, although it is technically saturday now.
I've been thinking alot about a certain pretty lady who used to be a very good friend of mine but isn't so much these days. These thoughts sprouted from a certain photograph on her blog of me and her looking so so happy. I remember that night. It was an amazing night. I miss her alot. I miss how we used to be. I miss how we all used to be.
I hate how much i've hurt her. When I said I never would. I hate how much it hurts her to see me happy. I just hate the tension.
Maybe it will be better after the summer.
Maybe...
I hate feeling so helpless to change things. I wish I could make everything better and everyone happy. I wish...
... <3
Ok that's enough moping for one evening. I'm going to go sleep and wake up happy.
I've been thinking alot about a certain pretty lady who used to be a very good friend of mine but isn't so much these days. These thoughts sprouted from a certain photograph on her blog of me and her looking so so happy. I remember that night. It was an amazing night. I miss her alot. I miss how we used to be. I miss how we all used to be.
I hate how much i've hurt her. When I said I never would. I hate how much it hurts her to see me happy. I just hate the tension.
Maybe it will be better after the summer.
Maybe...
I hate feeling so helpless to change things. I wish I could make everything better and everyone happy. I wish...
... <3Ok that's enough moping for one evening. I'm going to go sleep and wake up happy.
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