Selfish me.

I realised today just how much anger and sadness I have inside me.

It came to me in a dream.

I have been having a lot of similar dreams lately. They always contain the same two people. And in every manifestation of the dream I am the one who comes out at the end with nothing.

How can this be so? What is it in my subconscious that leads me to this conclusion in every one of these dreams?

It is not so in reality... or is it? I suppose on the surface you would say, Hattie, you have what you wanted. How can you question it?

But I am not the same person I was before. I am not going to sit back and not question the things I know in my heart arn't right.

And surely, these dreams indicate something is not right?

I have been lied to. I have been treated as a lesser person by those who have wronged me.

I am no longer a doormat.

And these dreams need to stop. One way or the other.

Anyone who says that life is not a competition is either very naive, or very stupid.

I am not that person.

In other news

Candy Floss baffles me. It is like eating flavoured wall insulation.

Speaking of candy floss. I went to the fair last night. It was fun. Like old times :)

I miss college already :'(

Strange things

Spotify shuffle just played The View From The Afternoon and then A Certain Romance...


To most people, they would probably think... hmm.. why on earth is it significant that Hattie's spotify played 2 Arctic Monkeys songs back to back?

The answer my friends is rock Show 2008. Those two songs, sung by two of my favourite boys Mr Luke Talboys and Mr Rory Campbell.

It just made me smile is all...

Sorry for wasting precious seconds of your life reading this pointless blog. I just like it when things like that happen...

Just coz

I'm kinda proud of this :)