Wednesday, 25 November 2009

We're Only Human...

Thank the lord for music and singing. If it wasn't for Jason Mraz and Dallas Green I would be a very angry person.

I've been angry alot recently. Angry and frustrated and lost and sad. But singing has really been a good release for me. I've also been home alone alot recently, what with havign no life and my family being social butterflies. So I've been cranking up the music and singing my little heart out. It's helping. A bit.

Sunday, 22 November 2009

Sing For The Moment...

Just got in from my second day of work. I don't usually work on sundays, but as it's getting near to chrustmas now we're open from 10 till 4. We didn't really make alot of money today, as hardly anyone realised we were actually open... but I managed to create a whole window display and put out a load of stock that was taking up space in the back room so that was good. It was a better day than yesterday. Yesterday was non stop. I mean it. Non stop. I worked from 9 till 5 with no break and no food and no chance to sit down. Every cup of tea I made went cold before it could be drunk.

Today was nice, me and Posie had nice chats and I got a lift to and from work so no nasty crowded busses for me :)

And now I'm sat here warming my toes on the radiator before I go and have a shower and tidy my room ready for Luke coming round. Once again I don't think we'l be pubbing tonight :(
I don't really mind because I'm knackered and we have alot of chocolate and X factor to catch up on!

I'm excited to see Him and without having stage light glare in my eyes!

Oh look, I'm little Red Riding Hood! x

Saturday, 21 November 2009



I'm sorry I broke my promise, here is my long blog...

I just got on the computer and logged into Spotify as I do whenever I come online. As always, when I listen to music I shuffle it. I find life is more interesting when you don't know what's coming next, and the same goes for my music. I also find that music can influence my mood, so I like to be surprised.

Currently listening to: Lazlo Bane - Superman (the theme from scrubs)

I'm finding this song to be ironically appropriate to my current situation. I'm feeling so vulnerably human at the moment. I pride myself on being able to deal with situations, but recently, I've just been breaking down. There is too much going on in my life and my head and it's really getting to me. I'm no superman.

Currently listening to: Jersey Boys - December 1963

This week at college we've had our first show of the year. "Kings Of Broadway". I started off not being at all enthusiastic about it to be honest. I mean, it's more about the ND1's as it's their first show, plus, it wont actually change my musical theatre or singing marks... so it was a lot of effort for nothing... but then, when we actually got into show week, and we got our costumes on and everything, I got really excited about it. It was also the first show that Luke would be coming to see me in that he's not in... I’ll be frank, that made me really nervous. I still feel like I've got these massive shoes to fill. So many people to impress... I don't think that feeling will ever go away.

Currently listening to: Girls Aloud - Biology

Speaking of Luke, he's been brilliant recently, and I've really been being rather mean to him. I'm snapping at everyone, and mostly him. Taking my frustrations out on the person who's always there for me. I'm worried I'm pushing him away... I love him so much. He surprised me last night by coming to see the show for a second night, because he heard I’d had a bad day. I think that was one of the nicest sweetest things anyone's ever done for me. I promise from now on I will try my best not treat him so badly.

Currently listening to: Chuck Berry - Johnny B. Goode

My bad day... well... basically. I went into college for about half an hour. I came in, burst into tears and ran out of the room. I don't even know why I was so emotional. Everything just got on top of me and dance REALLY wasn't my top priority at the time. I also felt guilty for the fact that dance wasn't my top priority. I felt guilty for letting my group down. Basically college just didn't improve my mood.

Currently listening to: The Lion King Soundtrack - Can You Feel The Love Tonight?

Today at college was also pretty pointless, I went in at 11 to clear up E73 after the show last night... only to find it's already been done... and then found out that my acting audition slot with Judy wasn't till 4oclock... I wasn't a happy bunny, however I managed to sort it out and showed her my monologue at half 11.

Currently listening to: McFly - One For The Radio

I should have been working today, tbh, I really need the money, Christmas is going to be an expensive one this year... but ah well. I'm working Sundays now so that's an extra £30 a week... I'm excited about Christmas this year. I'm excited about being with Luke on Christmas Eve. I'm excited about giving him all his presents; I'm excited about not being in Wales. I'm excited about working this Christmas. I'm just generally excited.

Currently listening to: Jason Mraz - Geek In The Pink

Anyhow, I'm gunna go now, my hands are so cold it hurts to type, plus I need to go work on my monologue. I hope this blog was good enough for you Zoe!!


I'm not ok.

Thursday, 19 November 2009

I promise

when I get back from the show tonight I will write a long blog.

God knows I've got enough to write about... x

Saturday, 14 November 2009

Who's The Crooks In This Crime?

I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do...

Wednesday, 11 November 2009

I really fucked it up this time didn't I my dear??

Damn you facebook horoscope. WHY are you always so accurate...

On a plus note, I am alone in my hosue so am singing Walking In Memphis as loud as I can...

Sorry i ramble so much...

Little Lion Man...

Helllllooooo fellow Bloggerians!

Sorry it's been so long, I've been doing... well not much to be honest. Alot of procrastinating. Alot of moaning. Alot of doing nothing.

I've got a show next week, my first college show of the year. I can't believe it's been 2 months already. Time really does fly when you're at college. The show's called Kings Of Broadway and it's basically just a shit load of songs from musicals. It's going to be good :)

Although I fear I shall never get "Into the woods to Grandmothers house" out of my head...

Then in about 4 weeks we've got our Christmas Show, Cyrano De Bergerac. We saw our set and costume mock ups today, it's going to be visually amazing, shame about the actual play being a big ol' pile of shite. AH WELL

what else has been going on in my life... *ponders*

Well apart from dance assessment, UCAS, applications, open days, college deadlines, line learning, personal statements, references, song learning, costume making, blocking, ALOT of cycling, working, the occasional party and a serious lack of sleep... not much to be honest!

Shall blog more soon, probably about my new found love for Mumford and Sons...