Friday 29 January 2010

I wanna be forever young

I'm going insane. I'm a coiled spring tightening and tightening. Only one release... I shouldn't. But I want to.


I shouldn't.

But I want to.

Tuesday 26 January 2010

Just wanted to put it out there

Chris Benton's blogs do make me chuckle. :)

Thursday 21 January 2010

Shortie's like a melody in my head

Nothing can ruin this day. I'm actually in a good mood.

Auditions:

5th Feb - Academy of Live and Recorded Arts

5th Feb - Guilford School of Acting

21st Feb - Liverpool Institute of Performing Arts

23rd Feb - Rose Bruford

bring it on.

Tuesday 19 January 2010

Wednesday 13 January 2010

Why does it feel like a friday?

It's snowing again? What's up with that. This is England. We have like... a days worth of snow a year.

On the upside I am currently listening to songs from Glee on Spotify and LOVING IT. Oh and Jason Mraz. also loving it. Ha ha!

I'm in a weird mood. I'm kind of sad but I don't know why, I'm kind of annoyed and I don't know why and I'm kind of contemplative and I don't know why.

The snow is doing weird things to me. I can't sleep, I'm moody, I cried yesterday for absolutely NO reason and I'm feeling boxed in. I'm in a creative rut and I want to write something good. I want to sing and have an audience, I want to do something and get somewhere and succeed and not be stuck in this house looking out at the endless white for another week. I want support. I want love. I want security.

I want to stop being such a basket case. Because most of the problems I have I bring on myself.

I want to stop doubting myself and doubting those around me. I want to be strong enough to trust someone. I want the voice in my head to fuck off for once and not make me always assume the worst.

But then again, "I want" doesn't get.

I want you to txt me back so I can stop worrying you're angry at me.

Thursday 7 January 2010

It's been a while...

I apologise for lack of postage. Been a busy bee!!

Well... not really but yeah...

Had a nice weekend, well. I say nice... I went to my Granny's memorial service on saturday, which was basically the funeral without the body. It was really lovely and loads of people showed up. It was absolutely fucking freezing because the church had no heating, but it really was nice to hear stories about her life, I even spoke myself!

Sunday was also lovely, Luke came over and we watched Merry Madagascar which was AMAZING and Marley and Me... I cried... but i think considering the emotionalness of saturday i'm allowed!

Then monday we slobbed about and watched Doctor Who because Luke hadn't seen it yet.

Tuesday we went to Oxford to attempt to spend vouchers and to exchange my jacket for one which wasn't BROKEN... just as we left Oxford and got on the train... it began to snow... I'm sure you know the rest! It was a pretty epic drive back to my house from Didcot in the blizzard in the dark after a pub meal with Luke's dad It took us nearly an hour to get to Abingdon from Didcot!

Wednesday and thursday consisted of doing college work, what with being stranded in the snow! Me and Chris went sledging on wednesday... it was epic... We also had a pretty amazing snow ball fight with bin lids for sheilds. I won. He face planted in my garden!

Anyhoo, another day off tomorrow so i'm going to go make hot chocolate and do some monologue searching!

toodle pip x