Thursday, 24 February 2011


Today I realised that I really am not good on my own.

I'm pathetic and lonely and co dependant and lazy.

Oh and pretty self loathing as well as self depricating.

Wednesday, 23 February 2011

Stolen from Zoz.

1. First person under J on your mobile phone?
James my old boss.

2. Do you hate that person?
Not especially. I'm indifferent to the raping bastard.

3. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Zoe... kind of.

4. When did your last hug take place?
Last night I think.

5. Ever been in love?

6. When was the last time you smiled?
I don't remember to be honest.

7. Does anyone like you as more than a friend?

8. What is something you really want right now?
Luke to come on skype/come home/to have a job/to have some money/to have more of a social life/to have some chicken dippers (i really fancy some right now)

9. How many true friends do you have?
Ask them.

10. What is the last thing you put in your mouth?

11. Do you prefer to call or text?
Txting is easier but calls are more personal

12. Who was the last person to smoke a cigarette in your presence?
Um... Liam probably

13. Is there anyone that you care more about than yourself?

14. Have you ever told anyone you were OK when you really weren’t?
Ofcourse. Everyone has

15. Does the number 17 have any signifigance to you?
Not any more.

16. Be honest, do you like people in general?
I like to give people the benefit of the doubt.

17. Do you like anyone?

18. Do you like your first name?
I like how it's a bit unusual.

19. Would you ever forgive someone if they cheated on you?

20. Do you regret doing something today?
Spreading a brownie on top of a cookie and eating it. I feel like a house. But it was really tasty... so no I suppose I don't regret it.

21. Do you talk a lot?
Sometimes too much

22. Do you miss anyone?

23. When was the last time you cried?

24. Do you ever get "good morning" texts from anyone?
I get midday txts. I'm rarely up before then.

25. Where is your phone?
Next to my laptop

26. Have you done anything embarrassing lately?
I'm not easily embarrassed. I may have done things other people would have found embarrassing.

27. Will you be up before 7am?

28. What is something you disliked about your day?
It was boring. And it's not over yet.

29. Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
For once? no.

30. Do you hate being alone?
I'm the sort of person who is happy with their own company. But right now? yeah I hate being alone.

31. When's your birthday?
6th of February

32. Ever been told "it’s not you, it's me"?

33. Can you recall the last time you liked someone a lot?
I'd say so :)

34. Can you recall the last time you boned someone a lot?

35. Do you have any saved texts?
A few

36. What's irritating you right now?
I want to eat something... but I don't know what I want to eat...

37. Have you ever told someone to their face they were ugly?
Possibly, infact... no I don't think I have. I'm not that spiteful.

38.Whats on your bed right now?
Me, mirror, toilet roll (i have a cold), blackberry, laptop, netbook, clean washing.

39. What's your favourite word or phrase?
I do enjoy the word fuck. and Dinlow.

40. Name 3 people who made you smile today?
Zoe (because when i read her one of these, she said me, and that made me smile :)) Um... apart from her, no one else yet.

41. What were you doing at 8am this morning?

42. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
watching tv

43. What is your favourite holiday?

44. Have you ever been to another country?

45. What is the last thing you said aloud?
"okie dokie, see you later" to my mum

46. What is the best ice cream flavor?
Mint choc chip.

47. What was the last thing you had to drink?

48. What are you wearing right now?
My onesie and some socks.

49. What was the last thing you ate?
A bit of a pastie

50. Have you bought any new clothing items this week?

51. What's the last sporting event you watched?

52. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?

53. Who is the last person you sent a comment/message on facebook?
comment - Zoe / message - Luke

54. Ever go camping?
Not really anymore. Used to every summer.

55. Do you have a tan?
No, I'm practically albino.

56. Have you ever lost anything down a toilet?
money, never a phone thank God.

57. Do you use smiley faces on the computer alot?
Yes :)

58. What did your last text message say?
um... I can't remember off the top of my head. something about my ipod.

59. Are you someone's best friend?
I think so...

60. What are you doing tomorrow?
Probably more of the same.

61. Where is your mum right now?
Off walking

62. Look to your left, what do you see?
The wall.

63. What color is your watch?
I don't have a watch.

64. What do you think of when you think of Australia?
Chaz and Loz... and Neighbours :)

65. Ever ridden on a roller coaster?
Damn straight

66. What is your birthstone?

67. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
Depends. Usually go in.

68. Do you have any friends on Facebook that you actually hate?

Yep. Just the one.

69. Do you have a dog?
No. I have a kitty cat :)

70. Any plans today?
Skype, be bored, sleep.

71. Are you happy?
In general.

72. Biggest annoyance in your life right now?

73. Last song listened to?
Dynamo of Volition - Jason Mraz

74. Last movie you saw?

75. Are you allergic to anything?

76. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
shiny broguey dolly shoe thingies

77. Are you jealous of anyone?
Not anymore.

78. Is anyone jealous of you?
I highly doubt it

79. Do any of your friends have children?
Not close friends

80. Do you eat healthy?
Haha. I try...

81. What do you usually do during the day?
Well, I used to work. Now i watch telly.

82. Do you hate anyone right now?

83. Do you use the word 'hello' daily?

84. How many kids do you want when you're older?
Atleast 1

85. How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
20. oh god.

86. How did you get one of your scars?
freak trampolining accident

87. Did I run out of questions?
That's not really a question... There are no more questions... so yeah I guess you did.

Peace out x


Sorry for my lack of blogs for like... a year... Recently I've become unemployed, so I'm kind of moping about the house not really doing much apart from baking and watching CSI and feeling sorry for myself.

I should really be looking for a job. But mysery loves company, and I've been a very good companion.

On a lighter note, my City and Colour tickets arrived today. I'm beyond excited. Plus Luke is back from America on friday morning, so I suppose I do have things to look forward to...

I moan a lot don't I?


Tuesday, 22 February 2011

Saturday, 19 February 2011

guess who's going to see...

CITY AND COLOUR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, 6 February 2011


Just looked back over my blog from last night, don't know what came over me, it was a bit of an odd one...

I made a cake today. Go me :)

Oh and One Tree Hill, 90210 and Glee are back on TV-Links. Pretty much made my day to be honest.

I do love illigally watching American tv programmes online before they're available on British tv. Makes me feel special.

God i'm strange...


That was a long one wasn't it!

I'm gunna do that thing...

Where i type the music I'm listening to as I blog... yeah... I'm cool.

Kids in Glass Houses - Young Blood (Let it Out)

It's been an odd week. Some highs, some lows. I've not really been in the best mind set recently to be honest. I suppose in a way I've been due. Every thing's been so good for me these past few months it was bound to come crashing down. (still kind of in the negative mind set... is it that obvious?)

It's my birthday today by the way... I'm 19 (that's old)

I've been working pretty much all week, well, I say all week... it was Tuesday to Saturday, that's still 5 days though right? So yeah, lets call it all week. I worked the first four days at Shake Away, two days with Liam and two days with Amée.

Prodigy (Pendulum remix) - Voodoo People

I expected that the two days I worked with Liam would end up being two nice, relaxed days, with decent music, not the stupid Shake Away play list and that my two days with Amée would end up being slow, tedious days with shite music. It actually turned out a lot differently... I shall elaborate;

Amée was in a good mood for once, she didn't tell me off for anything and we listened to some pretty good music, we even had fun. We had a competition to see who could come up with the worst song... I won. I picked the Numa Numa song. You all know it... you're imagining the fat bloke doing the dance aren't you? yeah you are... Anyway... Tuesday with Liam was also a good laugh, some old friends came in to say hello, and Liam didn't play loads of emo rubbishy music. Friday however, he did play lots of emo rubbishy music, we didn't end up leaving the shop till 7 because of a cashing up cock up (i must point out, it wasn't his fault) and it was also super busy, and Liam is easily distracted.
So now you're starting to get a taster of my up and down week. This was just for starters.

Arctic Monkeys - Teddy Picker

A few weeks ago I decided to make a facebook event for my 19th birthday drinks. I invited about 30 odd people, and began to get pretty excited about the event... 12 people said yes... and as this week has progressed more and more people contacted me saying they couldn't make it... even more didn't bother to reply at all... this didn't exactly make me feel special... (yes i now realise I was being extremely ungrateful to the 20 or so people who did actually show up in the end, I Love You ALL... especially Zoe... but at the time I was like "brill... no body loves me")
This whole shitty business came to a head yesterday day time... the day of the event. I had been up since 5am for work at Waitrose and felt like shite, so was NOT looking forward to the night at all... oh yeah, then i spilled red hair dye all over the bathroom floor, so Mum now hates me.

Michael Jackson - Can You Feel It?

In the end, the night was fabulous, everyone who came are absolute stars and I finished the night with KFC in bed, so all in all a good birthday eve drinking sesh!

Today was my actual birthday, I say was because it's over in 20 minutes :( I went for lunch with my family and Luke and it was amazing, had a huge roast and the pub sang happy birthday to me which was lovely, the pub last night did that as well, I seem to attract drunk people and singing!

This section is dedicated to Luke coz he's awesome:

Luke really has been a star this week, completely trying to make me feel better about the whole birthday night out thing, plus my general negative feelings. He's a fab boyfriend and I couldn't ask for better to be honest.


It's red and purple stripes and has a hood and matching socks that say FUN on the bottom. It's amazing.

I apologise for the complete rambles of this blog, it's pretty erratically written... but i'm tired, and have a very random thought pattern... There are probably lots more things I should have mentioned, but I cannot be bothered to go into detail about them now, so here's some bullet points!

  • Going out for purple rain pitchers with Abi and Emma on Monday and them both being obscenely drunk... and me being sober
  • Emma hiding from my mum under my bed and saying she wasn't hiding... she just really liked that bit of carpet
  • My last day at Waitrose, they bought me a bottle of wine from Fish Hoek bay in South Africa, it has a fish on the bottle... very appropriate me thinks!
  • My Nana's birthday, eating SO much Chinese and then seeing The Kings Speech, which is sooooo good and Colin Firth is still yummy even though he's old now.
  • My sister coming back from Bristol after living there for like 6 months.
On an appropriate note:

Fall Out Boy - Thnks Fr Th Mmrs.

Right, I'm off. I blog soon.

S'laters x

Thursday, 3 February 2011


It's my birthday on sunday. Could I be any less enthusiastic?