Wednesday, 30 December 2009

I'm still in love

Monday, 28 December 2009

Little over due...

I suppose I should write about my christmas then...

Lets start off with Christmas Eve!

Christmas Eve: I was working today, from 9 till 3, it was pretty fun actually. We got given loads of free stuff from the other shops in the market including lots of chocolate and a WHOLe cake from the cake shop... which was pretty epic... gotta love cake... we were then supplied with 2 bottles of champagne from James and John (my bosses) which got drunk in about... hmm.. 10 minutes! Josie and Molly were both working which was fun because I miss having them around now they're off at Uni learning things and being clever. At the end of the day we were handed our big bags of free chocolatey goodies and our christmas presents and off we popped home... Well... me and little Rosie went to sainsburies... and guess what... my wallet got stolen... with my christmas bonus in it... yep. £80 gone. Plus my ID and cards and everything. Not good times.
Anyway, off home and got everything ready for christmas day, including finishing off my wrapping etc. Luke came over about 6 and we decided to open one present each... well... i pursuaded him that we should. So he produces this little black and gold box... I open it... it's only an effing IPOD! A lovely brand new PURPLe ipod nano, with video camera and radio and all that shiz. I then give him his early present... it's shoes... I feel a little like an anti climax!! Ah well, they're Fred Perry and he loves them... anyway, Luke scoots off home and I settle down in bed ready for....

Christmas Day: Wake up at about half 9 and get ready to go visit my aunties and nana. Leave about half 11, late as per usual! We eat nibbles and drink bubbly and open some presents.

So far i have:

the ipod, a pair of GORGEOUS Leather boots from my Nana, some topshop and cult clothing vouchers from various aunties, a lovely Urban Decay lipgloss, some chocolate, som gloves, socks and a fluffy soft toy bunny rabbit hiding inside one of the boots "It just called out to me" says Nana. Yeah nan... course it did ;)

Anyway, about 1 we drive home, mum's making the lunch and all. We stick in the spuds and decide to go up to the pub for a bit. The land lady gives us some beer for me because all we had at home was wine, plus some lemonade because i don't like wine on it's own. We get home about 3, the food is almost done so we slob about for a bit. Lunch is at 4... a little late but SO yummy it doesn't matter!!

After lunch we open the rest of our presents,

A SuperDry leather jacket, cd, dvds, SPACE HOPPER, chocolate, the Stephenie Meyer book that ISNT Twilight, perfume plus much more i can't remember now from luke.
A new military style coat from my mum and dad, plus more dvd's, chocolate, some BedHead stuff and various other small things,
Some well cool false eyelashes from my cousin, a new monologue book from my auntie, vouchers from my sister, Luke's mum and Grandparents um... I can't remember anything else...

Then rang Luke to say thankyou for said items, then sat down with a whole tin of Roses to watch Doctor Who. I LOVE DAVID TENNANT. More telly watching, started uploading things onto my Ipod after downloading new Itunes which took an AGE then off to Lukes to spend the night before going to see his family on...

Boxing Day: Today consisted of Me, Luke, Luke's parents, Chaz and Robyn (brother and sister) Jo (Chaz's GF) Joel (Luke's cousin) Jan and Oliver (Auntie and Uncle) and His Grandparents.
We ate ALOT of food, drank alot and played lots of Uno and Wii fit and Wii sport and Mario Kart. Watching older people playing the hula hoop game on wii fit is actually hilarious. I love Luke's family. Even if they do call me Ginge.
Then went back to Luke's, and to bed! We were so knackered.

And that was my christmas!

Sorry for the ramble!

Friday, 18 December 2009

So cool and yet so far away...


Amazing. Beautiful music.

One small thing

A man stopped me in the street today and told me I was beautiful, smiled and carried on walking.

What do I make of that?

Tuesday, 15 December 2009

Grief is a funny thing.

No two people will ever grieve the same way.

But I still feel like i'm not doing it right.

How sad is sad enough? How many tears should you cry? Is it ok to be happy about other things? Or should the grief be the only thing on your mind? Should it be ok to not want to say goodbye? To only remember the good things?

Is it ok to not want to see the person you love being carried off in a box.

How do you grieve?

Someone tell me.

Granny I miss you.

Friday, 11 December 2009

Wakey Wakey...

I hope I see you soon

Cause you’re fond of me and I am fond of you

These days I guess that’s all it takes

That and just a few mistakes

and I have made mistakes

Yes I have made mistakes today…

So tonight I’ll be your Brooklyn

So cool and yet so far away

Just tell me what you want for me to say

And if it brings you home…

I guess it’s safe to say

We both could use this fire escape

Cause I’ve been breathin’ ashes in

And I’ve been waiting for somethin’ to carry you away

Cause i have made mistakes today…

So I hope you travel safe

I hope you’re cool, I hope you find your way

It’s sad, but it is safe to say

We disagree on one too many things

And I have made mistakes today…

Thursday, 10 December 2009

The Geek In The Pink <3

The geek in the pink SD polo that is... I <3 Him.

Cyrano all this week has been hell. I'm actually really rather ill. I can't taste, head, breathe or speak. It's not much fun. So doing a play in masks with full lights AND the radiators in the theatre on last night wasn' the funnest thing ever. I felt like I was going to pass out.

Ah well, only one more show to do, oh and my log book... then it's all over and I can actually concentrate on stuff which is important like auditions. EEP. I'm scared. I mean terrified. I have 8 weeks till my first one. And I'm not prepared at all. I should be learning and perfecting a monologue a week. I am no where NEAR that organised. I never was any good at prioritising...

I don't know if I want to grow up yet...

I'm not ready to go it alone.

I also don't want to go back to that place we were in at the start of september. That was a bad place. It needs to stay in the past. Because I cannot deal with that again.

Let me in. I'm on your side.

I really want this cold to bugger off now. I want to be able to sing again. I want to be happy again. Being ill makes me grumpy. And I don't like being grumpy.

Right, I better go do my log book I guess...

Saturday, 5 December 2009


Considering it's been 10 days since my last blog I figured I should write something.

It's been a pretty long 10 days. We've been rehearsing non stop for Cyrano. I actually think the show is going to be adequate... instead of shockingly bad. So that's a plus I suppose. We got to go on the set for the first time this week which was really good and it's an amazing set! Well done to all the techies because they've done a fabulous job.

On wednesday I went to london with college for an "Alternative Careers Fair" which is basically a way of discovering careers in performing arts which don't involve performing... it was pretty pointless... I did get to talk to a crazy woman who does scenic painting. She was pretty cool. A proper london accent and crazy red hair. She kept going on about her favourite paint brush!

But yeah... apart from that... pretty pointless.

Today I had work. It was long. And tiring. And just... long. I need an early night. I'm convinced I've got an annurism or something because I keep getting headaches in really specific parts of my head. It's a little scary. So yeah, work wasn't too fun today. Especially because once again I didn't get a break, once again. That's got to be illegal.

Work again tomorrow, so X Factor then bed I think. Oh and talking to Luke for a bit. I've been a shit girlfriend recently.

Scratch that. I'm a shit girlfriend in general.