Sunday, 30 January 2011


I look in the mirror,
what do I see?
It's not my face staring back at me.
It's hers and yours and the rest in between,
the lies that you told
and the things that i've seen.
Filling my head and breaking my heart.
All the things I tried so hard to discard.

Never being number one
I've now come to expect.
But I never though you'd make me feel
like another face to reflect
in the mirror stood before me,
with the faces of the used,
belittled, fucked and ego bruised.

I know i'll never be her.
I thought I meant more than the rest.
The ones who meant nothing more
than heat to warm your bed.
Now tell me, do you see me?
When you stare into the glass?
Another nameless lover,
A new ghost for your past.

Or do i stand beside you?
And do I hold your hand?
How can I ever tell you?
How can you understand?
How it feels to love somebody
and to have none in return.
To know you're just a number
and that number's never One.

Friday, 21 January 2011

What a let down!

the 3000th episode of hollyoaks that is.

I was expecting drama and explosions and what not, but all i got was Suzanne having twins! Bah. Ah well.

It's been a long week and a sad one.

I went to a funeral on tuesday for our next door neighbour Lottie Miller. She was like a surrogate nanna to me and my sister. Came to every school play and was always there if we needed a hand. She's been our neighbour my entire life and I'm going to really miss her. The funeral itself was lovely though. Nearly the entire village showed up, it was great to see just how many people really loved her.

Apart from that, i've been working all week, hense not a lot to blog about. The only good thing is that I'll be getting a lot of money this week! Anyhoo, this blog is going a bit rubbish, so i'll end it here and hoefully write again soon.

Adios x