We live on front porches and swing life away

If love is a labour I'll slave till the end...

Not had the best week to be perfectly honest with you.
I've been lonely.
And angry.
And cold. In a literal sense. My house is fucking freezing at the moment.

I've cried far too much this week. It's not good for me.

Today at work was probably on of the most boring and tiring days of my life. I didn't have time for a lunch break because we were that fucking busy, what with Ben being off work with ACTUAL swine flu and Josie being in London.
So me, Nicky and Posie soldiered on for the day with too many customers and not enough time to sit down.

Ah well. I'm going to watch the Harry Potter behind the scenes thing in half an hour then go do some painting. Maybe that'l cheer me up...

thankyou for the coffee, a simple conversation

thanks for the light shining in your eyes.

If you havn't already seen Ice Age Three in 3D go see it. It's amazing. IT COMES OUT OF THE SCREEN O_o!

Abi, Emma, Rory and I went to town today. We sat in a cafe for 2 hours and ate paninis and drank tea and chatted about life and love and conflict and tennis. It was nice :) Then we went to see Ice Age Three... ate a little too much icecream and pepsi and popcorn and got VERY hyper... and wouldn't shut up... and made everyone else in the cinema a little annoyed.

I am going to name my children Eggbert, Shelly and Yoko.

Me and Abi invented a new dance especially for when you're excited in a cinema. It's pretty awesome to be honest.

We then went and sat in another cafe and drank more tea and had more chats and wore our 3D glasses. We are too cool.

Although, I SWEAR all cinema attendant people have a vendetta against me. THREE of them took the piss out of me today!! THREE!!!! Stupid cinema peoples. It was rather funny though...

And now i'm sat at home alone wishing I was out and about and laughing and having fun. But I'm not. I'm sat at home listening to Adam Hood and sighing. Sigh.


Ah well. I'm loved. So what more do I need?


OOH some diet coke would be nice...
and a cuddle
and your blue eyes
and to wake up next to you.

Thanks.. X

love's never easy, and I know i'm hard on you...

They should call me lemon

Because i'm so fucking bitter.

Are your hands too numb to hold me tonight?
Hold my heart in your palm and squeeze it tight,
If you can muster the strength to do anything but swallow
Your liver may be full but tonight your soul is hollow.

It's a new dawn it's a new day it's a new life for me.

Don't tell me I don't know, what its like to be alone,


Don't tell me I don't know

Don't tell me I don't know what it's like to be alone.

Everything I want right now is everything I can't have.

It's been a good few days. Lots of things have happened. But a few shining things stand out for me.

1. Chilling all day Monday at John's house with Luke and Abi. Just drinking beer and watching films and eating pizza and laughing. It was so nice to be surrounded by real, genuine, true friends. Abi and John, I love you.

2. Going to Wantage on tuesday and being showed a part of Luke's history and his life, finally seeing the Garden Centre and meeting Ian. Standing there over his grave and seeing all the love and memories and happiness surrounding him gave me a new perspective on life.

Grasp every second
Don't hold grudges
Love fiercely
Love completely
Be truthful
Forgive.

So that's what I plan on doing. I'm going to tell people I love them more. And I'm going to let my deamons go.

And I'm going to forgive, and I'm going to forget.

And I'm going to stop fighting this war.

Because he loves me.





We may be young, but we're not invinsible. So why waste life? After all, you only get one.