Saturday, 21 November 2009



I'm sorry I broke my promise, here is my long blog...

I just got on the computer and logged into Spotify as I do whenever I come online. As always, when I listen to music I shuffle it. I find life is more interesting when you don't know what's coming next, and the same goes for my music. I also find that music can influence my mood, so I like to be surprised.

Currently listening to: Lazlo Bane - Superman (the theme from scrubs)

I'm finding this song to be ironically appropriate to my current situation. I'm feeling so vulnerably human at the moment. I pride myself on being able to deal with situations, but recently, I've just been breaking down. There is too much going on in my life and my head and it's really getting to me. I'm no superman.

Currently listening to: Jersey Boys - December 1963

This week at college we've had our first show of the year. "Kings Of Broadway". I started off not being at all enthusiastic about it to be honest. I mean, it's more about the ND1's as it's their first show, plus, it wont actually change my musical theatre or singing marks... so it was a lot of effort for nothing... but then, when we actually got into show week, and we got our costumes on and everything, I got really excited about it. It was also the first show that Luke would be coming to see me in that he's not in... I’ll be frank, that made me really nervous. I still feel like I've got these massive shoes to fill. So many people to impress... I don't think that feeling will ever go away.

Currently listening to: Girls Aloud - Biology

Speaking of Luke, he's been brilliant recently, and I've really been being rather mean to him. I'm snapping at everyone, and mostly him. Taking my frustrations out on the person who's always there for me. I'm worried I'm pushing him away... I love him so much. He surprised me last night by coming to see the show for a second night, because he heard I’d had a bad day. I think that was one of the nicest sweetest things anyone's ever done for me. I promise from now on I will try my best not treat him so badly.

Currently listening to: Chuck Berry - Johnny B. Goode

My bad day... well... basically. I went into college for about half an hour. I came in, burst into tears and ran out of the room. I don't even know why I was so emotional. Everything just got on top of me and dance REALLY wasn't my top priority at the time. I also felt guilty for the fact that dance wasn't my top priority. I felt guilty for letting my group down. Basically college just didn't improve my mood.

Currently listening to: The Lion King Soundtrack - Can You Feel The Love Tonight?

Today at college was also pretty pointless, I went in at 11 to clear up E73 after the show last night... only to find it's already been done... and then found out that my acting audition slot with Judy wasn't till 4oclock... I wasn't a happy bunny, however I managed to sort it out and showed her my monologue at half 11.

Currently listening to: McFly - One For The Radio

I should have been working today, tbh, I really need the money, Christmas is going to be an expensive one this year... but ah well. I'm working Sundays now so that's an extra £30 a week... I'm excited about Christmas this year. I'm excited about being with Luke on Christmas Eve. I'm excited about giving him all his presents; I'm excited about not being in Wales. I'm excited about working this Christmas. I'm just generally excited.

Currently listening to: Jason Mraz - Geek In The Pink

Anyhow, I'm gunna go now, my hands are so cold it hurts to type, plus I need to go work on my monologue. I hope this blog was good enough for you Zoe!!


I'm not ok.


  1. Your blogs are always good enough, Hattie! Haha. Thank you. ;)

    & I'm always here for you, chick. Don't forget that. We're both so similar in the way we deal with things, so we can brave through all of the shit together.
    I love you. xxx.