harder, better, faster, stronger

Emma is my lesbian lover.

Don't look back because this road is all you'll ever have.

It's been a long, emotionally draining week for a few reasons.

1. Kiss me Kate. I would just like to say well fucking done second years. At the moment I really can't imagine life without you. You all deserve DDD because you're all amazing. Good luck to where ever you end up and whatever you end up doing.
2. I've been having shit crazy mood swings all this week. Angry/sad/happy/excited/exhausted/rebelious/paranoid/too many other things. And they've made me say and do some things I wouldn't usually say or do. And I just want it to be better now. I want us to be better now. I love you.
3. every girl on the planet will agree with me here. I hate periods.
4. I really did not want to work today. I swear the heat makes everyone go loony. Some of the customers I had today I actually could have punched.

But apart from that, I'm ok!



I know you're not going anywhere. And this summer is going to be amazing. And no matter what anyone says or tries to spread, it's you and me for the long run.

so suck. on. that. bitch.

This could be something

How many battles must be won to win a war?
Because I'm fighting for you against too many whores.
How much faster must I run to win this race?
I'm sprinting a marathon just to keep pace...



This could be something. If I get my head in gear and concentrate. But at the same time, if I get my head in gear, maybe I wont feel like this anymore and I wont need to write it down

The old me's dead and gone.

First of all, even with all the current shit escalating at college, Me, Emma, Alex and Luke had a bloody brilliant time at the polo yesterday. So that just goes to prove, people can sort their problems out.
Secondly, speaking of the current shit escalating at college, on ALL parts, in ALL arguments, I am not getting involved. I have a strict, only disliking people if they hurt me personally policy. And as none of you have hurt me, atleast not for a while, I wont be turning against anyone. Or taking sides. That doesn't mean I will be taken advantage of. And it doesn't mean I don't hate what's going on. Because I do. I think you're all cowards. But you're my friends. So sort it out. Before anyone else gets hurt.

On happier topics, the Polo yesterday was very good, alot better than any of us were expecting I think. concidering the weather conditions, and the fact we all felt very poor! I did come away with a pair of socks and a pair of knickers though... and a very light purse! Basically all Emma, Luke, Alex and I did was get very drunk and sit around not really doing much apart from checking out the bad fake tans and bad fake blondes. It was a good laugh!
Got back to Luke's from the polo at about 10ish and had possibly one of the best hot chocolates ever before snuggling up and going to bed. It was a generally lovely day, shame about the College thing in Abingdon in the morning kind of putting everyone in bad moods. But ah well. It turned out good in the end :)


I don't want any more competition. How many battles must I win before I finally win the war.

Live high, live mighty, live rightously...

what a week it has been so far!

I've not been at college much, but the drama seems to have been concentrated down into a weeks worth of shit in like... 5 hours. I don't like being involved in other peoples shit. Believe it or not I really don't.

Anyhow, I actually stuck around college for ages today, till like 6 o'clock! I actually fancied watching some of the Kiss Me Kate rehearsals, I wanted to keep it a surprise for next week when we see the show... but I just got nosy ha ha! It's looking good. I think they're going to pull it together :)
Plus I really didn't want to be at home. So watching rehearsals was a lot better than sitting at home alone for yet another evening.

I'm really not liking how I'm feeling at the moment. Like there's this giant heavy pressure growing inside me and I just need to explode and let it out, this burning question I need to ask. I need confirmation. I need piece of mind. I need you to make it better.
But I can't. I can't tell you. I just can't.
So I suppose I'm just going to have to try and swallow it and forget.
It's only a matter of time... right?

So fragile we are we just don't show it.

Sorry it's been so long since I've blogged. I've been working, alot. Well, tuesday, wednesday, thursday, saturday. Apart from that I havnt really been doing much at all. Another reason why I havn't blogged, I havn't had alot to say. One thing I do have to say though... Ross is one good spammer! 141 txt messages and 55 facebook comments in one evening.

What else have I done worth mentioning this week... OH YEAH... NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM 2 AND PIZZA HUT. NOT TO MENTION ONE HELL OF AN AMAZING BARBEQUE ON SATURDAY :)

What can I say, I have an amazing boyfriend who likes to take me out on properly old school dates. It was so awesome I felt like I was 14 again... apart from sipping on beer with my pizza and icecream factory instead of pepsi hahaha :)

I miss him now though :( I have a feeling I'm not going to see him for a few days :(

Anyway, I am off to watch neighbours like a homo.

Loves x

Carpe Diem

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