Oh dear.

I AM in a pickle.

AND THEN

I'M GUNNA SMOOSH IT ALL OVER AGAIN

ARGH

I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU






I WANT TO SMOOSH YOU FACE.

SMOOSH IT SMOOSH IT SMOOSH IT SMOOSH IT SMOOSH IT.

Curiosity killed the Hat.

I think I definately bit off more than I could chew. I told myself I needed the truth.

The truth was too much for me.

I feel... I don't know how I feel.

I'm currently using all my will and strength not to turn into a spiteful cruel little girl. Or to march over and give them the smack they deserve.

I need to be stronger. I need to take the high road.

It's not a competition right?

But if it was... I won.

Life lessons

I learnt a valuable lesson today.

Everyone has at least 2 sides. And it is so easy to slip into the same old act, the same old defense, the same old lines.

We claim we can change. But there is no quick solution. An apology is not a magic spell. You say sorry and everything is better. It's going to take time and work and communication.

and for god sake stop snapping at me.

and maybe i'll learn to stop saying sorry.

But there are always two sides to every story. And if I'm working so can you. It takes two to compramise.

And don't you dare lie to me.

...

Maybe? :)

Miserable at best...

Let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know she's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, she stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my boy to dance, and he'll say yes

Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best

You're all that I hoped I'd find
In every single way
And everything I could give
Is everything you couldn't take
Cause nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles away
And the hardest part of living
Is just taking breaths to stay

Because I know I'm good for something
I just haven't found it yet
But I need it

So let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know she's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, she stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my boy to dance, and he'll say yes

Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best


And this will be the first time in a week
That I'll talk to you
And I can't speak
It's been three whole days since I've had sleep
Because I dream of her lips on your cheek
And I got the point that I should leave you alone
But we both know that I'm not that strong
And I miss the lips that made me fly

So let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know she's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, she stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my boy to dance, and he'll say yes

Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best.